Is anyone else's mood tied to their productivity? Wednesdays are my extended day when my son is picked up by my mother, giving me from 9-3 to work on Willpower Wellness. I find myself totally blah by the end of the day when all I've managed to accomplish is a two sentence Facebook post, some professional reading, and managing the RSVP list to my son's birthday party. My kitchen table is stacked with tons of inspiration and yet all I can think about is whether the rug in my bedroom would look better in my living room.
I've always been a "sign" girl, that is, I'm quick to interpret things that are out of the ordinary or that work hard to get my attention as a sign from the Universe. Of course not all signs are meaningful, but sometimes they are. For me, some of the signs that stand out, especially in retrospect, are the time when a hawk flew in front of my window, perched and looked at me before flying away. Then there was the time when my midwife was confirming my miscarriage and a red cardinal kept tapping on the glass of the third floor window until we opened the blinds to see it. I'll never forget driving home one afternoon after picking my son up from preschool and seeing a tarantula crossing the road in front of my car. How bizarre and unusual, right? I mean a tarantula?
Not all of my signs have been animals. When I began to notice repeat numbers often, I looked up their significance. Every time I looked at a clock I'd see 2:22, 3:33, 4:44, 5:55 or 11:11. A text message might come through at 1:11, the display on my dash says 2:22, the gas just happens to be 3:33, etc. After a while, my friend Virginia, who is an incredibly gifted intuitive coach, recommended a deck of Oracle cards. I'd never worked with or heard of Oracle cards. They reminded me of Tarot cards, which I have always thought to be a bit too gypsy for me personally. Despite my skepticism, I felt like the Universe was trying to get my attention, and oh by the way, I'm also at a point in my career where I'm trying not to let my own insecurity and fear obstruct following a path that is truly an extension of myself. To say I've been seeking some guidance from somewhere "out there" would probably be an understatement. Maybe these Oracle cards could give me some insight.
I chose the Ascended Masters deck of cards because of all the repeating numbers, I tend to see 333 the most, which according to angel numbers mean the Ascended Masters are near you. It's worth noting that before this, I didn't even know what an Ascended Master was and I certainly am not up on all the angels out there, but I decided to keep an open mind with these cards.
So what do Oracle cards have to do with productivity? I've been feeling a bit down today. I'm trying to create content for my website, but the creative juices are just not flowing. I'm reminded of Anne Lamott's book on writing, Bird by Bird when she discusses how even the best writers will often sit painfully staring at their computers willing the words to write themselves only to find themselves staring blankly out the window. That's how I feel today, so I pulled out my cards. "Focus on your strengths" really spoke to me. I've been trying to figure out a way to make a professional looking graphic but powerpoint is just not working for me, and I absolutely have no desire to fiddle fart around with SmartArt to find the right shapes to work. Apollo reminds me to Be Alex. Do what I'm good at, and I am definitely NOT good at powerpoint, graphics, or creating marketing material. Thoth encourages me to "write", which is why I'm penning this post. Manjushri tells me to "listen," and when I do I hear the words of Apollo. Be Alex. Be Alex. Do what you're good at. Stop wasting your time with the other stuff. It doesn't have to be perfect. Wait-what? Hello, internal self. Yes, it doesn't have to be perfect to be productive. Just be you.
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